Day 55: What story are you telling?

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Photo by  Patrick Fore  on  Unsplash

Photo by Patrick Fore on Unsplash

I’ve had a particularly busy month with a lot of extra engagements on top of my usual course load. When I woke up this morning, I noticed a sense of heaviness and dragging. “Ugh, I’m sooooo tired. I just have to get through this morning,” I promised myself as I trudged downstairs to get the water on. I found myself repeating like Thomas the Tank, “Just get through it, just get through it.”

At some point, I recognized this narrative looping in my head. And I wondered, “Is this serving me? What would it be like to shift the story? What if, instead, I approach the day with the intention of enjoying the company of my students as we explore learning together?” Even dropping these questions in helped me to feel a little lighter and a more ready.

Our thoughts are tremendously powerful, and when they just run amok without our awareness, we can sink energetically and emotionally.

I am not the kind of person who can go from internal darkness to blinding light with a switch. Pretending, “Today is going to be great! I’m so excited!” would not necessarily feel authentic or accessible to me. But just noticing my story and asking myself what it might be like to try something else helps free me up.